Can’t talk about it to anyone so coming here to get it off my chest. I met cassie a 23f at a local restaurant I go to often. It started innocent she hangs out in a group of people that get together on the weekends and go out in the area. She and I became friendly and she would help me out by picking my kids up on days work ran late to take them to my house. I paid her so it was transactional. After we started spending more time together one weekend we were all out and I couldn’t keep my eyes off her which led to me asking her to come over. My fiancé was out of town. It was mostly innocent she slept over and we laid in my bed and made out and there was a lot of heavy touching but feeling her up against me and in my lap while we kissed had me so turned on. I found myself talking to her all the time. Me and my fiancé got in a big fight one day and I went to her place to vent she let me complain about my frustrations while she sucked my dick. I left feeling better but I needed more. I took her to Chicago on a work trip with me where I spent the next few days fucking her non stop. She knows I’m getting married but doesn’t seem to mind. She’s quiet and doesn’t try and get me caught when my girl is on the phone.

I don’t want to stop seeing her. My wedding is in 5 months and I’m fucking her weekly. I’m jealous of other dudes who get at her but she always leaves with me. Conflicted if I end it or ask her to be my gf in private