Since school J and I have been attracted to each other. It never worked out though and apart from a couple of kisses and a hand down my panties at a party we’ve never managed to make anything really happen.

We have however had each other on a popular picture messaging app. Often just an occasional message, asking how the other is, catching up. But sometimes I liked to tease J. Pictures from my bath, just hinting the top of my thigh, selfies from bed where the covers were almost low enough to tease nipple, close up selfies of my mouth, which he always said he liked.

Whether either of us was in a relationship it didn’t matter. We teased each other. Cheeky and naughty. Never anything else. And it made me feel good. Sexy. Wanted.

I liked the idea of him getting hard looking at me. I frequently got off myself thinking about him hardening as he looked at the teasing pictures I sent and imagined what he’d do to me.

Then after many years of this J just stopped. He didn’t open messages, no matter how tame. If he did open them I got almost no reply. I know it’s probably terrible but I miss it.