I swear, i've been thinking about it all day… like, the idea of being completely used, no holding back, just letting myself get lost in it. it’s been getting me so worked up that i don’t even know what to do with myself. i wanna feel that total loss of control, feel every inch stretching me, owning me until i’m left shaking and begging for more.

i’ve thought about just inviting someone over, saying “do whatever you want to me,” and letting it happen. the more i imagine it, the more i just need it. sometimes i catch myself daydreaming about being tossed around, no mercy, just pure, rough, raw pleasure. the kind that leaves me breathless, bruised, and dripping.

i’m honestly tempted to just get on cam, put myself out there, and let everyone watch as i give in, no shame, no holding back. i’m dying to feel like a complete toy, open for anyone’s enjoyment. the idea of being watched, knowing i’m putting on a filthy show just for strangers to enjoy… it makes me so desperate i can barely think straight.

maybe one day i’ll finally let go.