(I've added a Bold Header to show where the sex talk starts if you don't care about the moments that led to me being slutty lol) I've debated on if I should make a burner just to post this or not. I don't want to ruin my life obviously lol but I have to get my thoughts out and there's no way I can tell anyone how I feel. about a month ago I started to view one of my grad school professors a little differently. It wasn't a theatrical and over the top cinematic moment where he walked in the room and I just HAD to have him. It was a subtle and slow build from the first comment he left on one of my papers.

With each new paper the notes left are deeper and more though was put in to each. I'm nervous to say what I'm in school for in case there are too many details that give away my identity, but I'm in school for something that requires you to write deep thought provoking papers about your personal life and experiences quite often. This means my professor has read intimate things about my life as I've worked them into my writing.

With each new note he'd leave I'd find myself putting more thought and time into the assignments just hoping to get his approval. Then his comments started to praise my writing and tell me he'd never thought that way and he wanted to use my wording in the future. This made me feel so powerful and confident...and horny. Because along with his comments, he started to keep more eye contact as we spoke in class and really seemed intrigued with what I had to say.

Here's where it gets slutty ;)

Before I could comprehend what was happening with my rush of sexual feelings I found myself sitting in our conference room style class in a big office chair sitting cross-legged (indian style) and discretely rubbing my clit slowly against the heel of my foot. Our building is very cold so I keep a large and really long sweater with me that I've started to drape over my lap so that no one can see me very slowly rocking my hips. My panties have been soaking wet after his class every week and I'm closer and closer to cumming secretly right there in front of him and he has no idea. Though I wish he did. I wish he was desperately stroking his cock to pics of me he found online. I wish I was the filthy little bitch he was thinking about every time he moaned and finished in his wife. I wish there was a way to discretely get him pictures of my just for his masturbating pleasure. I want to be who he thinks of when his cock gets thick and rock hard.

I want him so bad. And I have this unexplainable assumption that he is into something kinky or wild...I feel like he has a very sexual side that we obviously wouldn't see in class. Last week after his class I was so revved up and intensely horny that I skipped the rest of them for the day and went home to fuck myself for like 2 hours. I watched every professor and college girl porn I could find and I tried to find a pornstar that resembled him. I rubbed my clit, fingered my soaking wet pussy, rode my pillow, and used my vibrator for back to back earth shattering orgasms.

Each time I'd come down from the orgasm high I'd get back into this filthy mindset of him being submissive to me. I've never wanted that in a man, but for whatever reason with him I want to own him in a way that isn't degrading or domineering. I want to sit on one of the tables in the room in front of him on an office chair and spread my legs open and tell him to please me. I want to wear sexy heels and black strappy lingerie and reach behind me to get a handful of his hair and pull his face into my ass and have him worship and lick my asshole until I cum. I've humped everything in my house I can manage to rub my pussy on in the last couple of weeks and its not enough. I moan his name and filthy talk with myself as I fuck myself. It usually goes a little like "rim that fucking little asshole...mmmm you're so fucking good...fuck you can work that tongue" and "oh fuck yes baby no one pleases me like you" I should mention that I'm happily married and I have an incredible sex life, but I fucking need this.

As I type this my husband is sitting across the room and has no idea that I took a break from my studying to share this. He has no idea that the last 2 weeks I've gone to the bathroom after he falls asleep to fuck myself in the most sensual ways while I look at the few pics on social media I could find of my professor. I have class tomorrow and idk how I'm going to focus the whole 4 hours without touching myself or pinching my nipples. I'll post again when I'm in class and share the nasty filthy fucking thoughts I have as my professor leads our very small grad school class.