Look, I know we're all just biologically-driven creatures doing our best. I've noticed that I spend more time on my NSFW reddit account at the end of every month. I'm fully aware that I'm probably just ovulating and trying to find an outlet that won't land me in jail for exhibitionism.

AND YET.

Despite knowing all of the logical facts about why I get this way, I am still astonished at how fucking depraved I am sometimes.

I have this friend who, at least a few days a month, I absolutely OBSESS over fucking. I want him biblically. The fact that we're both married makes it even hotter because it's so forbidden.

For a few days every month, I am a brain dead slut for this man. Every single time we talk I am trying to gauge whether he'd be receptive to a flirtatious comment. Every time I think about him it's in terms of how badly I want to stare up at him while my head bobs up and down on his cock.

I don't think he knows that he has this hold on me. I mean, he knows I'm attracted to him and I know the feeling is mutual, but I don't think he has any idea how much my pussy throbs for him. Even when it shouldn't. Even now, while I'm writing this.

And then in like 3 days I'll go back to being a normal person with an average sex drive and I'll be able to focus on something other than my fantasies of letting him slide his dick into this tight wet pussy from behind.

But until then.... I'll be thinking of him.