TLDR Nothing happened, might bore you. it's my couple of hours at night. I'm sorry. This post won't turn you on, but it's real and reality isn't always sexy.

Let me make things easier for me: A (This hot, really fucking hot smart intellectual guy) flatmate of my boyfriend (4 years, I love him dearly, dearly so much and wish to marry him someday).

We three share an apartment, 3 rooms each in Mumbai India. Individual rooms between me and boyfriend you ask, we both respect our own privacies. My boyfriend knows I am a hyper sexual, I control it always, never have I cheated on him. Never has he, I'm glad. But this "A" friend of his, is trouble. Trouble in the sense, he gets my panties SOAKED, by just sitting around and passing some comments. A works in Game development, Boyfriend is a Web developer and I'm .. (I wanna hide my field out of some fear, lets say - I am a helper of people). 

We share rooms, we talk, we all sleep in the same rooms in movie nights. Recently we watched this documentary oh Dahmer. I was really disturbed, I had a feeling so were they. We are all very jolly people, can't imagine crimes and such let alone Dahmer. But This night, We decided to sleep together. Okay. 

Later at night, A wakes up, goes to the hall and starts watching the rest of the show (we had left off). I could hear it, and i went to see, I was like BRO wtf? what's wrong with you. He was like he couldn't sleep, might as well make sure he faced his fears and passed out on the couch. I was like NO F Way, I assure you I never wanted to continue this movie but I did because I care about this dumbass. We were on a couch, separate ends. and it got really disturbing, I mean you should watch it, actually don'y unless you have a strong sense of heart.  We watched it all, but now our sleep is fucking gone, so what do we do. I decided let's watch something chill like Moana, but he wanted to grab a drink and go to the terrace. Again, I followed, On the terrace we spent, literally let me tell you 2-3 hours just talking about the our feelings. I never knew how he felt and how he thought, it was kinda erotic for me. I feel ashamed to say this but it was. I started feeling like I could smell him even though he was so away. so I went closer, poured my drink in his of which most fell and I said I'm here. IDK, am I wrong to do this? I am constantly feeling this tingly sensation all over my body, my nerves are cracking up, the need to take care of his fear his rising meanwhile my boyfriend is passed out IDK HOW?

I start talking to him, tryna distract him in funny ways, joking flirting. He seems indifferent. ?? But then i started massaging his chest, idk I didn't really had an intension to be any sexual but I surely was wet way before idk about him. He stoked my thighs, he even touched my neck saying it's "pretty". I could see him breathing heavily.

Not this is all I've recollected, nothing happened that night, sorry to disappoint you guys. But I'll post updates. Maybe, or maybe nothing happens. But whatever I tell you will be it. A secret is, I kinda wished, he took his whatever out on me. I still do. But he's being very reserved. *sighs. See you whomever is reading soon.

But I'mma take care of him, he seems to be in a tough place, all horny aside, if he needs me I will be there with all my fucking might. He might be suffering, sulking in. He is strong but even strong people need support. I won't take any individual going through shit and feeling alone. This was my experience, even though I posted it on this subreddit, you have to understand it's people who get slutty, my BF has no clue he is deep asleep. I am a slut, and sho is this "A" guy, but sometimes you gotta be there for more. FFS. I have to step up. Any ideas, lmk. I CANT let him down.