28m First Time Made me greedy

I am a 28 year old man and yes my first time was very recently, about a month ago.

I did it with a colleague who is in love with me but for whom I have no attraction.( I warned her well in advance that there would be no story between us).

I went to her place about 4 times and she went to mine twice, we watched movies, series, played video games and had naughty moments but since I'm not attracted to her, sometimes I have trouble staying hard or I stay hard and can't come ( Which in a sense is an advantage in terms of endurance 😅🤣) Which creates complexes in both of us.

We even went to the cinema twice, where she had fun touching me over my jeans, then jerking me off during the session🫣.

She's Obese and without wanting to be mean because I still appreciate her a lot as a friend, it doesn't make it easier to get into certain positions And anyway even if I like some curves, in his case it's too much for me.

I want to make it clear that I'm not saying this in a bad way. I'm the first to be short and I'm overweight and I have a little complex about it : 158cm for 66kg ( Oh and yes i am french so i use meter and kilogram sorry).

The problem is that I have always been easily aroused since my early teens, but since this recent event I get horny often more, I want to have fun, With someone I like but I'm still way too shy, you can go flirting, I also have trouble posting in online groups.

The easiest thing would be to find someone to chat with online and maybe end on cam 🫣.