This is a confession from the past, but I want to share it know because I would feel great talking it out. So I grew up with my mother, my father was not around. This helped me experience things with my mother to the fullest. When I started exploring my body I used to do it with my fingers, I used to start with one lick it good then two then lick them very good and then three if I was feeling super horny. After a while I wanted to explore more, one time I found my self wondering around the house and I was looking at everything and thinking if I could use that or not, I remember seeing a small cup and thinking if I could use that omg haha on that same day I sneaked into my mums room also and there was she masturbating while using a toy, I got a bit turned on by that which is kind of weird. The next day when she was at work I borrowed it for a few hours