I’m too much for every man I’ve ever been with

I’m very sexual and very kinky. Guys think that’s the dream but in reality every man I’ve ever been with can’t keep up. They get intimidated or stop trying. They play out a couple fantasies with me but always leave me wanting more, my fantasies are discounted. They fuck me good at first, but over time, since I’m NOT lazy in bed they stop trying and let me do all the work. Cuz they know I will. They know I’m desperate for anything and will give me the bare minimum. Keep their balls empty but never worry about me.

My husband is getting better but he kink shames me and makes me feel bad about being horny all the time (only when he’s not horny ofc. He loved it when I gave him head this morning without question…and any morning he wants it)

My exbf told me he always wanted a submissive toy like me but he didn’t fuck me as much as he could have and He didn’t want me once I stopped being shiny and new.

When I was younger I had to hold back to keep from intimidating the boys I dated.

Maybe I’m just sensitive this morning because I haven’t gotten off in a few days and everything is annoying me. I’m very sexually frustrated these past couple days. I know I have to stop thinking this way because it really upsets me and makes me wish I was the type of girl who said no. Makes me wish I was vanilla. Makes me wish that I could just masturbate and “cure” my horniness and move on with my life until the next time I was turned on. Makes me wish I didn’t have the dirtiest horniest thoughts all day.