Honestly I don’t even know where to start this. I am in such a situation and its got out of control but it’s the only good thing in my life. Im a women in her 30’s married with a child. If any parents are reading this you can understand how ….montinous things can become. I work as a receptionist in an office that helps with shipping at a major retail store. One of the delivery guys is a Latino like I am and very different from my American husband. We got talking about our culture and dancing and eventually I agreed to have a coffee with him. I knew as soon as I left my house that I was in trouble. We went on a few “dates” if you want to call that but both knew it couldn’t go any further as we were both married. He is older probably in his early 50’s. I did not sleep with him but we did have oral sex a few times usually in the back seat of the car. Im not on birthcontrol so I never wanted to go further and he doesn’t have condoms as his wife is.  I added him on social media but we didn’t like any of each other photos but it was exciting to see each others lives and talk about it later.

Eventually His wife went to her sisters house for the weekend because his sister in law was close to having a child. He told me his son was going to be at his girlfriends house over night. I went over to his house and honestly it was very nice. He cooked dinner for us and we danced and we ended up fooling around a little bit. It was special but confusing. I ended up sleeping over but on the couch on the mainfloor as he didn’t want me to sleep in his wifes bed.

This is the part that makes me sick sometimes, but I have become obsessed. At around 1 am in the morning His son came home after drinking. He walked in the house and woke me up. He cant be more then twenty years old. He asked me what I was doing there and I honestly didn’t know what to say so I told him that I was a friend of his dads and my house was under renovations from a water leak. I looked so stupid sitting in my underwear. He told me he knew that was a lie and that I was here with his father. He told me his father brings women home all the time. I felt so angry as I realized I was just a number to him. The son then called me a whore and we argued about it for a bit and then I just stopped as I was fighting with a child. The son then said that he sleeps with the same women that his father does and he knows they are all sluts. That made me so furious not only was I a number but the father also didn’t sleep with me. At that point I thought to my self that I was doing this for fun and now I was being blamed for something I havnt even done. I asked the son how often he fucks these women and he said all the time. At that point my soul left me and I asked him if he had a condom. He pulled his pants down and he was rock hard. He had a much more slender build then I was use too but honestly his penis looked perfect. He slid the condom on and I pulled down my pants. It slipped right in and before I knew it my feet where above my head. I then realized that the guy I was suppose to sleep with was watching by the stairs. I knew I was set up at this point but had nothing to loose. If he wasn’t going to fuck me I was going to let him watch his son fuck me. We did a few different positions and then I stood up in front of the son squatted down and started sucking him off while fingering my self. I was being stupidly loud more then I needed to me. I could see his dad jerking off at the top of the stairs. Eventually his son came in my mouth and I spat it on the floor grabbed my jacket and left.

This is not how I saw my affair going. I have to face this man on Friday and honestly I don’t even really want to talk to him. I was using this as a way to feel special and honestly I don’t feel anything about it now. I do believe that I made that young guys night though.

Off to therapy, I already know we are going to talk about Impulse control and I should get an STD check even though I wore a condom for the penetration. I’m probably not going to say anything to my husband as really I was looking for something emotional and this was not it.

TLDR, Im a whore and didn’t even get what I wanted.