I’m a college student who literally would give off no indication that I’m into such taboo kinks. The fact that I’m so uninterested in sex that my friends think I’m asexual is kind of funny considering every time I go back to my dorm after class I rub myself to misogyny kink, nonconsent, conversion, dumbing down, things that no one would guess I’d be into.

I’ve tried to stay away. I’m a really anxious person IRL and sometimes my OCD makes it so I get scared talking to people on here because it just feels icky and wrong and like I’m doing something bad. But every time I try to stay away, I end up back on these subreddits, masturbating until I fall asleep and sometimes even have dreams about this stuff happening to me. It’s a love hate relationship to be honest because it freaks me out and I sometimes want to actually be disinterested in sex but it’s like I can’t stop because it just feels so fucking good.