I (34nb) have recently discovered i have a cheating kink. Been married for about 10 years. We had some problems in the beginning of this year and I was mentally checked out. So when a hot guy at work started giving me attention, I let him. We met up in the parking lot before work for the first time, and made out, he fingerer me, I sucked his dick.

The first time we had sex was at a hotel. I told my husband I was hanging out with coworkers. Omg this man fucked me better than I've been fucked in over a decade! I didn't realize how deprived I actually was.

The second time, he texted me and asked me to go on break and meet him in his car. He fucked me senseless in his backseat. It was so fucking sexy knowing we could get caught and fired at any second.

Met up at the hotel again the next night, went 4 rounds, and I didn't want to leave. I dont even know how many times he fulled my pussy with his hot cum. I've never been addicted to a dick as much as I am with this man.

The next 2 meet ups were in a park parking lot in the middle of the afternoon, and we fucked in his backseat again. He made me gag on his cock, and I felt so proud being a dirty little slut. I want nothing more than to be used by him as his personal little sex toy.

The problem is, he's afraid of feelings and ghosted and blocked me months ago. I miss him SO MUCH! I've tried everything. I don't know what to go to get this man back. I'm dying without his touch. I want him. I crave him. I need him. I dream about him almost every night. I imagine his face every time my husband and I have sex.

I just needed to vent my hurt feelings, I guess. And ask if anyone has advice on how to get him back.... I know it's a bad idea. I just can't stop thinking about him!