I’m an attractive male & have always been an exetremely horny person with a high sex drive & little difficulty finding romantic partners or just sex partners. I am turned on by vanilla normal sex & all types of kink. I’ve been in a series of hetero vanilla relationships, & can’t really see a way to have all of my kinks & sexual desires “out” in a long term working relationship.

So, for years I have had a secret kink sex life w/ both males & females. Many things turn me on that I haven’t been able to express in the dynamics of a vanilla hetero relationship. For example, I had a partner years ago who used to give me golden showers. This was a huge turn on. When that relationship ended, I found a much younger women via the old CL personals I would pay to give me golden showers. With me if I’m into something, it’s always the to the exetreme, so this would involve me going to her place & getting naked & sitting on her shower floor while she stood over me naked. There would be a little build up where I would touch her legs & feet while I touched myself.

Eventually, when she was ready, she would straddle my face & pee. Some would go in my mouth & some just flow all over me. I’d be touching myself during this & when she was empty I would make myself climax, rinse off, & go home.

I am also closeted bi. I’ve had various experiences with men, usually one timers via Grindr. I have a small penis & am turned on by submissive sissy type play with both men & women. I met a “daddy” Dom type on Grindr who had me come to his place where he kept a male slave & had all this fetish gear. He had me strip naked & inspected my body, commenting on my small penis which turned me on a lot. Then he put me in a silky crotchless body suite & had me bend over on all fours & used different toys to penetrate me anally & rimmed me.

He restrained my wrists in handcuffs & was fairly gentle with my ass & this really turned me on. Another issue I have is I can be an extreme premature or no touch ejaculator. Premature / no touch ejaculation & small penis humiliation have become a quite kink of mine. I take meds sometimes so I ejaculate in a normal period of time - so I can regulate it. Eventually the dom put on a condom & started fucking me in the ass.

It felt so good after 2 mins or so I came without any stimulation or touching my dick. I just had an orgasm & semen shot out. When this happened I told him I was cumming. He went on for another few mins fucking my ass. When he was close he ripped off the condom & put his cock in my face so he could cum in my mouth. I loved it.

These are just a few examples of experiences I’ve had while maintaining a series of normal vanilla hetero relationships at the same time. Recently I’ve been very excited by the thought of being recognized & humiliated by a man or a women for having a small penis & for being a premature ejaculator. I think I’m pretty rare in the fact I can cum from no stimulation to my penis if I’m turned on enough.

This happened a few nights ago again. I met a much younger F2M trans person on Grindr looking to receive oral. I invited them over & had some foreplay & we soon were naked & I was sensually worshipping his large clitoris. Erect it was about 1.5” & it was amazing to tease, lick, suck & kiss it. Eventually he was getting more turned on & I started sucking it up and down & I could tell an orgasm was a few mins away. As I lay on my stomach i became so turned on by doing this I came a few mins before he did just from the pressure of my body on my dick. When he was done, he wanted to make me cum & I explained I already did.

I’d love to chat with other people who’ve experienced or who are interested in experiencing these types of kink, especially humiliation.