My best mate of around 13 years has this cousin, I knew she was beautiful I’ve met her a couple of times in the past. Not really spoken to her or said much because I just thought wow.. this girl is just wow so you could say I was in awe of her! Fast forward to around a month ago.. I was scrolling tiktok and found her page, I went on and spotted she only had one video I liked it cos it was cute and it’s spiralled from there, she messaged me.. we exchanged socials and have been speaking every day since, today she’s coming over and I’m fucking bricking it because 1)she’s gorgeous and out of my league 2)her cousin/my best friend if he found out probably would never speak to either of us again and 3)I so badly want to fuck this girl and make her scream! How the fuck do I control myself around her?!