Went to the state fair last night hoping to have some sexy fun or maybe meet some one new. I just wanted to have a good time, maybe suck someone off, get felt up, and ride them instead of a ride, you know? I just wanted to feel a spark. I even dressed up a little trying to send signals without being too obvious. (Here's what I wore.)

I used to be way more assertive, but it has been a while. I tried talking to this one guy and he seemed interested. But when it came time to find a dark corner or share contact info he just sort of lost interest or something. Which sucked. I felt so let down. I probably should have put myself out there more, but it would have been nice to feel desirable too.

In the end, I still had a good time alone, but I can’t help but feel a little let down something more didn't happen. Didn't sleep well last night. Now I am feeling kind of down and horny, which is a stupid combination.