I've been posting nudes online since I was 18, but only once in a while with long periods between content. I didn't really interact with commenters, just took the ego boost and went on my way, masturbating about once a month.

Now, since I started playing on cam with various people, and especially since I started this account, I've found that I can't masturbate alone.

It kind of feels like if no one is watching me, or I'm not being actively praised or used, then it's a waste.

Tonight it happened again. I fully intended to fuck myself solo, just enjoy an edging session that I'd been looking forward to all day, but when I got out of the bath I realized I was too tired to set up the cam, find an audience- and without someone getting off to me, what's the point?

Oh, well. For now I'll look at it as a timesaving curse.