About a year ago, I had an ex (27m at the time) that had guilt tripped me into rimming him. He had begged and begged and even tried convincing me that his ex would do it to him all the time and that it was normal. He was a seriously manipulative and fucked up jerk so eventually I was forced into choosing between expanding my sexual horizons or being single.

I thought I was in love and he was my very first everything, so I didn’t want to lose him. Finally after one particular night I decided I’d do it. He was so eager and assumed a position in which he was on his back with his legs in the air. I had never seen him so excited before. He spread himself and kept trying to make jokes to “lighten the mood” but I didn’t find it amusing. When I was first lowering my face towards his spread asscheeks I was having second thoughts. It wasn’t until I finally put my tongue on his asshole and heard him groan was I actually surprised at my own reaction…

I felt myself getting incredibly wet and wildly aroused. After about a couple minutes in I started lapping with real enthusiasm and when I thought about what I was doing, I realized my body was on fire and I couldn’t help but touch my pussy. I came hard.. my fingers in my pussy and my tongue up his ass.. After a moment of reflection, I felt so ashamed and disgusted with myself. After that night and throughout our relationship I was in denial and was ashamed of my love for wanting to constantly eat him out. I fantasized about it and would masterbate to the memory. He would continue to beg and I would only “reluctantly” (although I was absolutely wet at the idea) eat him out on “important occasions” like his birthday or him passing a final. Eventually our relationship took a turn for the worst and during the blowout he had threatened to tell all of our mutual friend about how I would finger myself to completion while he sat on and rode my face, calling me a slut and asking me how it tasted or if I liked it. I knew he had a few videos that we made too, and even tho he never threatened to post them, I was mortified at the prospect. It felt so humiliating and I was so ashamed/scared of being outed that I still rim him and let him fuck me occasionally even tho we aren’t together.

I haven’t had a serious relationship since then, but I basically offer to rim any guy I hook up with. I love it when I’m the first girl to offer it to them especially when they have a wife or gf who would never do it.. it gets me so fucking hot..