Years ago, I joined a CrossFit box and radically transformed my body. I lost 40lbs in 6 months and I got super toned. As my body changed, I noticed a lot of interest from ripped guys at the gym. I was super intimidated by this one guy who was super popular and extremely muscular. You could see the shape of his dick when he was moving in his shorts and when he talked to me, I basically. turned into a little kid and started stuttering. He started making a point of talking to me and I would get so wet I could smell myself and I was nervous that he could too. I'm not sure how it happened but we started texting and he sent me a photo of himself jerking off on the toilet at his job. In the video he came ribbons of cum and I completely freaked out. I have never been so simultaneously turned on and repulsed. He asked if we could meet up for sex and I wanted to but was afraid because I was so intimidated. Somehow I ended up agreeing and he came to my apartment. I was so nervous I had to use the bathroom right away. He followed me close behind bumping into my ass gently as I walked. It took all of my strength to turn and say "can I help you?" He said he wanted to watch. I wanted to say no, but it was like he had this weird power over me. The toilet was across from the bathtub. And he sat on that while I sat on the toilet. I had a hard time peeing with him watching, he knelt in front me and pushed my knees apart and leaning me back a little saying something like "let me see what you have". He bit my clit lightly and I felt a really intense sensation, it was so swollen. He spit on me and the took two fingers and started rubbing my gspot. I could feel myself turning pink. I came so fast and also peed all over his hand. I stepped in the tub to rinse off and he stopped me and told me that he said he liked how I smelled and not to rinse it off. He took his clothes off picked me up by wrapping my legs around him. He said "I need to feel you, so I'm not going to use a condom, okay". I felt my body get really hot and I explained that I wasn't on birth control. He told me he wouldnt get me pregnant and I told him I was afraid. We went back and forth and eventually he pulled me on top of him on my bed room. Something took over and I started rubbing myself all over him. I couldn't believe how wet I was. It was making a lot of noise and He was moaning and just kept on saying he couldn't use a condom with me. He told me he got tested regularly and really wanted to be close with me. I eventually agreed to let him out the tip in a missionary position. My vagina started involuntarily clamping and releasing on the head of his penis. "You fucking bitch," he said looking in my eyes as he pushed his whole dick in hard, kissing me and then pulled it all the way out "look what you made me do!" His dick was dripping with my juices when he pulled it out. I tried to sit up and suck him but he gave me a soft but firm slap across the face and then turned me over on all fours. He slapped my ass, held my butt cheek open and spit on my asshole and started pressing his penis in. I had never done anal and I told him that it hurt and he didn't stop but reached around with one hand and started rubbing my clit. He got what felt the head in and started doing small pumps. My vagina was still doing those spasms. It felt like forever because of the pain (and pleasure) combo and but he did come inside my ass a ton. He grunted loudly and squeezed me really hard when he did it. I will never forgot the feeling of his cum dripping out of my ass and onto my vagina. He then pulled me into a little spoon position on the bed and fell asleep almost right away. I stayed awake for hours, so turned on (and completely freaked out).