I’ve lowkey been cheating on my boyfriend for over 4 months with our apartment neighbors and he literally has 0 idea he even exists. The neighbor and I met at the gym at the clubhouse months ago and have done afternoon workouts together and then we typically hangout for a bit at one of our apartments. We both work night shifts so it works great and my BF working during the day. It all started out friendly and just friends for a few weeks but then one day I somehow ended up in the shower with him after a workout which felt like a blur afterwards but he fucked the shit out of me in the shower and then I retuned to my home next door like nothing happened. I was so nervous and anxious my boyfriend would somehow find out and I quit going to the gym with my neighbor for a couple weeks until we kept unexpectedly meeting walking through the clubhouse. I was trying to fight my thoughts and urges but the truth is I could not stop thinking about how big this guys cock was. I knew I would need more but I tried to fight the urge. We have gone on to fuck and do a ton of sexual stuff about 3-4 days every week for the past 4 months now. My boyfriend has no idea thankfully because I know it would hurt him and I do love him so much but I just can’t kick the urge to keep hooking up with this guy. I’m like stuck in a place where I want both of them. I’m going to just continue on as is for now and hope nothing comes up between my boyfriend or the neighbor.