Before you jump and make fun of me for taking this decision, it’s important you understand why I did it in the first place.

I’m a first generation immigrant from South America, not Mexico, not Central America, mainland South America. I fled my country on 2019 and been living in the United States for about 5 years now.

I never really excelled at relationships, I’m too shy and boring for girls and not to mention my personality is not the best, even for a thin 6’1 dude. My relationships with women were mostly online or were tied to a small female friend group which non had an interest in me and just saw me had a friend. I had a couple of long distance relationships but they never lasted more than 2 years.

My most recent relationship wasn’t the best, it was with a Colombian girl (F19) which was 5’4 , chubby and EXTREMELY insecure about it herself, we dated for a 2 and a half years before I started doing significant advances to at least put her down a bed with me but she always had excuses or something stopping her. We had chats about this and no matter how much time I gave her she didn’t seemed to want to have sex with me, which could be tied to her insecurities and other issues, whatever the case may be, I respected her decision and when easy with the teasing to have sex.

We broke up recently, and since there wasn’t anyone from the opposite gender that I knew would an interest for me, and I didn’t like the idea of licking some girls boots just to get in bed with her and overlook a relationship just for my sexual desires.

So at the age of 19, with the money I’ve saved for quite a while, went to multiple sites and research a massage parlor for a “happy ending”

I’ve been to a total of 2 location in my city, one near my workplace which was just like 30 steps from the main entrance, was my first pick. I went a total of 4 times to this location, 3 out of 4 of them was just a very uncomfortable handjob and the 4th visit was just a plain massage.

Second location was closer to where I live, not a big deal, it almost looks like a corner shop on the shopping plaza it is on, knowing what to expect with the reviews I read, I walked in.

I was greeted by a short Asian lady, dressed up as if she was going out to a club, she asked how much time I wanted to do, I payed for 60 minutes which is roughly $80. She guided me to the room and left me alone so I could get naked, I did so has I’ve done before, laying on my chest and covering my ass with the little pillow cover they have nearby.

The same gal came, she looked 35 at best, she has medium sized tits and a fat ass, it didn’t looked like she was wearing a bra.

She starts with the massage, using plenty of massage oil to rub my back, legs and arms and overall it seems like a very standard and comfortable massage, she was so good at it that I almost fall asleep lol.

That’s when she flips me and and does a palin massage to ask the usual; “do you want me to walk you off?” I just jump the gun and awkwardly ask for sex, she giggles and tell me face front the price, $200. Money that I had at my disposal.

I pay in cash and she gets to work, jerking me off and sucking on my balls to then put the cap on and give me a sloppy bj for a couple minutes, needless to say the condom ruined the experience but it was either that or contracting aids.

She then gets to mount me, jumping right into it she rides my cock and by the way she moaned she seemed to really like my dick. I’m not fucking with you here, she couldn’t stop complementing it and I could tell she enjoyed by the way her pussy clenched on it. But that’s something else.

I fucked on her side and doggy, I did missionary for multiple minutes not before reaching climax. The post nut clarity hit me hard, I was feeling remorse and sad that I couldn’t give my virginity to someone special, and to this day I regret this.