Just before my best friend got married, I had a drink with his fiancé. I barely knew her, but that’s how it happened. She had a minor accident, and she didn’t have any friends or people around her, so I was the only one who could call her for help, a friend of her fiancé. We cleaned up her accident (it was a really minor accident), and I took her to a nearby hotel, where, strangely enough, I didn’t want to leave right away, and she was very friendly with me.

We talked about various things until the hotel’s coffee shop closed, and we were surprised at how well we got along, and when the coffee shop closed, we felt sorry and went to the bar in the hotel lounge to continue talking. The bar closed at 2 a.m., and I had to go to work the next day, so I was about to leave, but she said in a voice that I still miss when I think about it,

“You drank. You shouldn’t drive.”

So I went to her room and waited for her to make me some coffee, and finally realized that I was in a hotel room with my best friend’s fiancé.

But the thought of getting up and leaving disappeared when she smiled (she was already quite drunk) and brought me a can of beer instead of coffee. So we drank two or three more cans of beer, held hands, talked, and... eventually kissed. I had the ridiculous idea that kissing would make me come to my senses, but when she licked my tongue, we just roughly undressed each other.

I can't remember how many times I imagined her saying, "We shouldn't do this!" But she just explored my body, just as I explored hers. After two times, I realized what I had done. I was overcome with a terrible sense of fear and regret, but she was sleeping soundly, content. I left the hotel in a daze and fell asleep in my car. The next morning, I woke up in my car, headed home, and took a sick day.

She? She married my best friend, had a child four years later, and is living happily ever after. We've never met in person, not even when my friend and I met as a couple. For the sake of my friend's happiness and the safety of my marriage, I will keep this in my heart until I die. This kind of strange thing has happened to me quite a few times. I am not very handsome, tall, or attractive, but I suddenly do things that I shouldn't do.

This is a secret from my wife and I will never tell her.