It's a new thing that has been on my mind. But for context my wife is 5'2 100lbs with a perfect pussy and ass. She recently got a new boob job too. Im so obsessed with her and we have amazing sex. Im only about 7.5" but she uses a 10" dildo and it drives me fucking crazy. I think mainly because she has told me that her Ex had a huge cock. I catch myself thinking about her getting used by someone with a bigger dick and more stamina than me. She deserves it. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night because I dream about it. I've gotten her to tell me stories about the different guys she's fucked and it really does drive me absolutely crazy. But it makes our sex so much better because I like to "take it back" and kinda punish her for it. Am I fucked up for thinking about her being with other guys?