I’ve posted before about my trauma, being taken when I was asleep on a beach with my friend nearby and never seeing him again; how after I told my bf (now ex) he then took advantage of me and we stopped having regular sex at all.

Well since, all I can look at is the nastiest and most depraved things here. Taboo, gross, perverted. And it fuels me till I cum and then I feel bad and cry and then get wet again and look and cum and cry and here we are.

Tonight all I can think of is being kidnapped from my life forever. Being kept in a basement, or closet, or cage. Being brainwashed. Being abused. Forced. Hurt. It goes on and on and I get wetter and wetter and lose my brain cells. Honestly I can’t even imagine a limit for myself and it’s embarrassing