I fucked my best friend

My best friend, Fernando is older than me, an intelligent and very nerdy man. We became friends almost by chance, we hit right on tinder, but when we met in person he was one of the strongest non-sexual emotional connections we're ever had. We agreed to stay as friends.

Our lives take turns and now he is going through the worst divorce in history and I fear that my crush will never see me again. I went to visit Fernando, only to find out that he is still alive. He was still alive, his house was clean, but he was a mess. He was surviving on ice cream and porn. I told him I would make him dinner and he was happy. 

I made chicken stew and we had dinner. It was obvious that he was unwell and that he was not eating well at all. I felt like his “savior.” And he confessed to me that his wife was cheating on him and she hadn't had sex with him in a long time.

When we finished dinner, he lay down on his couch again and I started cleaning the kitchen and living room (he literally just dirty the living room). When I finished, I gathered all my courage and sat on his lap. 

“Would a little sex be nice?” I said and I didn't have to say anything else, I had him on top of me eating my breasts and with his hands snaking all over my body.

He wasn't aggressive at all, but he was very skilled at masturbating me and pulling on my nipples. I removed my clothes and got on all fours, shaking my hips at him. He got up and didn't hesitate for a second to penetrate me without a condom. He fucked my brains out. He was totally out of control

He fucked me like I was a bag of cum, he came twice in a row. And then he took a break before he ate his cock. He had no mercy pulling my head however he wanted. 

We fucked until the next day, I left him plenty of food cooked and saved in one person's rations just for him to heat up and I left. I don't plan to contact him again. He and I made the rule of nothing romantic/sexual between us and we broke it. However, I hope that from now on his life will improve.