Yeah, this might not be such a big conffesion but here it is.

Im m29, european. For the context.

I think i finally get the cuckold and hotwife kink.

1. I would love to have a sexy hotwife that loves sex, cum, breeding, has good sex drive, and love for sex.
2. I would love to have such a good open minded relationship with her, that we would be able to share each other, still be together and love each other. Have trust, and good communication, interest in other things aswell where we connect.
3. I would love to see her getting fucked in a way maybe i cant, just see her enjoy herself basically with other guys in general, be happy about it and show it all to me too.
4. be able to thrive with each other still, have no fears in relationship, be connected on other higher mental things too, not just physical sex.

Didnt had succes much in my previous relationships , because i never had a serious mental connection with the person long term. Now as i explore more; and get to know this lifestyle more i understand why. This is what i need in relationship - the kind of freedom to fuck whomever, not necceserely that i would do it, but still i would love to have that kind of agreement. So for my partner too i would love to have nothing but the same. I think it takes something on mental plane to accept to be into this kink openly, and willingly.

It fees like a conffesion to me, because before i was thinking like cheating is worse thing that one could do; and all this cuckolding is like low value thing, which is possible and could be for some cases, but in general it takes open mindednes to be in this, so now i see it differently. Like its fun, its trust needed, good communication needed, and yeah could be very hot, fun, and worthy to experience the variety of life. On the positive spectrum it may have a really good vibration to it.