I’m in my mid 30s now and married. I’m a white male in the suburbs. Pretty much cookie cutter life what you would think. Except I’ve always had a thing for black women. I tried dating when I was in my 20s but it always ended the same. Family wasn’t on board with that type of relationship. Anyway when I was in my mid 20s I slept with a black woman. Honestly the best sex of my life for so many reasons. I really liked her and honestly it just felt great. Well because families not being supportive of relationships it never worked out. And I eventually met my wife (who is white) I love her we have been together for almost 10 years but. It just feels slightly off like I’m missing something that is more me.

It’s something I’ve struggled with for years. It’s like an itch I can’t scratch or tried to ignore. I’ve recently started a new job and there is a high African American female population. I’m being tested I swear. I’ve gotten hit on a few times already. Staying strong but man I don’t know if I can not cave at this point. Im trying to not go back but it’s tough lol.