I 22F have been in a relationship with my girlfriend for 3 years. She’s amazing and I love her but lately I’ve been wanting more. For context I have told everyone I was gay since I was 16, it’s kind of part of my brand.

So I had been wondering about how a big cock would feel inside of me but my girlfriend wasn’t comfortable with a threesome so I just bought an 8 inch dildo. I thought I would continue to be satisfied with that but I kept getting an insatiable urge to try the real thing. Before I continue yes I know I’m fucking horrible for this.

Anyway we have this friend let’s call her Emma who has been dating this guy for a little over a year let’s call him Adam. Adam is handsome and kind of an asshole. I’ve never liked Adam but while we were playing truth or dare his girlfriend dared him to show us his cock. My girlfriend and I had already both flashed during this drinking session so i didn’t think it was a big deal. So it turns out Emma was just trying to flex on us because he is fucking huge. Bigger than my dildo.

We spent the night and the next morning he drove my girlfriend to work and me home. I thanked him for the ride and offered him a bowl. He accepted and came inside. I kept getting rushed through my body, like a panic attack except good. Well not all good but I was so wet.

Long story short when I came out of my room with my bong I was naked. He didn’t address it for like 5 minutes and my anxiety was going crazy. After taking a second rip of my weed (I know right) he asked if he should be naked too. So we sat on the couch together while he showed me how to jerk him off. I kept saying this was as far as it was going to go but holding his cock was making me quiver. I ended up giving a really bad blowjob, I had literally zero idea what I was doing. I could tell he was pretending to enjoy it but I was having to much fun to stop. I asked him if I could try his cock just once after having a minor panic attack half way through the blowjob and I started crying and begging him not to tell anyone.

He said he would be gentle. Honestly for the first few minutes it kinda hurt. It felt good too but I had never had something this big inside me. Then he put my legs over his shoulders and world changed forever. He started fucking me hard and I came in like 2 min. He made me cum 4 times just with his cock and I was under the impression that was impossible. When he came he pulled out and came all over my clit. We swore never to speak of it again. The next day I begged to suck his cock and then he railed me from behind. We have been fucking at least 3 times a weeks since and if anyone finds out my life is ruined. I feel horrible but I can’t stop.