He's been fucking me for years even though he isn't single. We've been off and on recently, and I've been trying to see my worth etc like the tiktok girlies all say. I've been dating other guys who are handsome, fun, smart. But no one can fuck me like him. I've tried fucking other guys, but they don't know how to fuck my holes until I cum over and over again.

So I went crawling back and let him fuck me until I was sweating, sore, and limp. Multiple rounds of him using me incredibly hard. Of shoving his fingers in my mouth or grabbing my throat while he pounded me. Yanking my hair back. Manhandling me. Kissing me hard. Cumming in me while telling me how beautiful I am.

Then we went out for lunch, and he acted like he didn't want to be there. Wouldn't make eye contact. Has barely talked to me since then.

I shouldn't crawl back again. I won't. I swear.