For the longest time I (27F) felt very ashamed of my sexual fantasies. I had a long term boyfriend and he was very nice but sexually I always craved more. I would fantasize about being fucked like those girls you see in porn, servicing men and being used. My boyfriend’s gentleness in bed wasn’t satisfying and I didn’t understand why I wanted to be treated any other way. Last year I met this girl who was a bartender at a swingers club. She invited me to spend an evening there, saying that there was no pressure to get undressed and do anything. After some convincing I agreed, told my boyfriend I was just going out with the girls and ended up sitting at the bar of this swingers club feeling anxious but also weirdly excited.

The beginning of the night was pretty quiet. But I quickly realized that being a girl at the bar alone meant that I never had to pay for my drinks. A few men tried to make conversation, buying me a drink to then direct their attention towards some other girl once I told them that I was just here to hang out with my friend. There was one man though who didn’t run away when I basically told him he didn’t stand a chance. He was in his 40s with salt n pepper hair, very attractive for sure, and a wedding band on his finger. After a few more drinks I was definitely not nervous anymore and I told him that I wanted to see what was happening in the “fun” section of the club. I made sure he knew that I just wanted to watch by curiosity and he agreed to show me around.

As we were walking through people having full blown sex a bit everywhere I stopped a bit to watch this girl getting fucked by one guy doggystyle while sucking another with a crowd of at least a dozen more guys watching. I felt myself getting instantly wet. My new friend whispered in my ear “Looks like fun to you?” I just nodded “Do you wish that was you?” I nodded again. I felt him get behind me, his hard bulge pressing against my ass. I moaned. For a moment I just grinded on him while he was telling me to picture myself pleasuring a group of men. I was dripping wet…

Thankfully I managed to have some self control and nothing else happened, besides the fact that he gave me his phone number and not long after I finally ended things with my boyfriend so I could truly explore the slutty side of me