So I (M20) have a girlfriend. We’ve been together for about 3 years now and for the most part it’s been great. We have our arguments, yeah, but nothing too bad. We even have a great sex life. But I wouldn’t be here if everything was perfect, now would I?

About a month ago, I went on something of a cheating spree. In the moment, I loved it. It was the sexiest thing I'd ever done. Granted, it was just over text and video call and stuff, but it was still incredible. The rush from it was like nothing I'd ever experienced. For a week or so, I was in absolute bliss. Then the guilt hit. I stopped cheating because I felt horribly guilty and told myself that I would never do it again.

As you might be able to guess, the guilt has faded and I crave to cheat again. The rush of it, the thrill, it's all too much for me to resist. All horrible of me, I know, but you only live once, right? Might as well do it. The only problem is that I don't think I'll be able to stop this time. I don't really care though, I don't think I want to stop.

So I've decided to be even more fucked up and look for something of a long term affair partner, whether that be in person or online. I've only ever done like one time flings and although those are sexy and risky, I think having a proper affair partner would be a hell of a lot more risky. Being that risk is like half the fun, I can only imagine how hot that shit would be.

So should I do it again? I know it’s wrong, but my god do I yearn to cheat again. So, should I? Should I cheat again? Or should I find a proper affair partner? Feel free to let me know.