My wife has always struggled to accept this lifestyle (cuckold/hotwife). 5 years we've been together and she cannot stop feeling like indulging into the enticing and appealing sensation that it is to flirt and connect with others, is wrong and will be met with negative consequences.

Consequently our lifestyle has remained a secret for these 5 years, and we've only disclosed it to very selected people. Either because we know they won't judge us, or because we know they don't know anyone we know.

So does she enjoy it? Yes she does, and every time there's a guy she's into, and there's no chance our secret will be outed, her reservations and skepticism melt like butter on a hot pan.

You have to read previous updates to understand what comes.

She kept talking to Guy (25-27M?). She's very secretive during the early stages of her affairs, yet she told me he had insisted multiple times that they meet again, and was flirty with her. I don't know much about this conversation to be honest.

She cancelled once or twice due to feeling tired and anxious and not really in the mood to meet Guy. Yesterday she was tired and also not in the mood to meet him, but she didn't have the heart to cancel it one more time, so she forced herself to go... and she left and met him in a bar where they both spent the afternoon and late night.

I waited patiently and she updated me once or twice, without saying much, and then she finally came home, about 6-5 hours later.

And this is her side of the story:

For most part of the date his flirtatiousness was mild enough to make her doubt his true intentions. They even talked about other affairs and stories, consequently worsening her confusion.

As I forecasted, her walls were down at this point, so she ended up being the one breaking the ice by bluntly asking him if he was friendzoning her. His answer was no, and that moved things to a new level, they became more touchy and not much later they kissed, and kept kissing until the end of their date.

Highlights:

• He is very polite, very intelligent, very kind, very charismatic, and honestly, I'm really happy for her.
• He reminds her of her ex boyfriend. I don't think her ex is as handsome as Guy, but I know her ex is a kinder and gentler person than I am, and someone who provided her with a feeling of peace and tranquility that I never have been able to. If there's something that her ex makes me insecure about, is about my social skills, and Guy reminds her of her ex. That fills me with both compersion and jealousy.
• She kept touching his arms because, well, he is pretty ripped.
• She gently and subtly touched his thighs and witnessed by eye and touch when he got hard by kissing with her. She liked it.
• She told me she would have fucked him, if she had a place to do it. She could have taken him to our place, but she still hasn't reached that level of comfort with this lifestyle. Root for her to reach it 👏
• She's scared because she was horny yesterday night, yet her horniness although very intense, didn't translate to me. Basically she's being a victim of the Coolidge Effect, which, to be honest, I can accept, it just means I have to step up my game.