So I have been with my wife now going on 10 years. She is thicker which I like it’s great and the last couple of years she has put on a few. She is self conscious about it and maybe feels I’m not attracted to her. Im very much attracted to her and I have told her repeatedly so. I think the issue is I’ve been hitting the gym hard the last year and I’ve been feeling pretty good and getting attention that I didn’t ask for.

Anyway it came to a head not long ago. I have a hard time sleeping at night without noise. I usually need a fan or some type of movement. I usually will move around a lot but it’s been to cold for a fan so I’ll shake my foot over the side of the bed. I don’t know why it’s just calming. Well my wife is a light sleeper. And the way my foot was moving she thought I was jerking off next to her. It took a lot of convincing but she finally believed me. There were some other movements as well but that was the first part. Second part is because my wife hasn’t really felt like herself or has had a hard time the sex life has been suffering a bit. So I’ve had to help myself out. And our house is small she’s not dumb she knows what I’m doing in there.

I feel bad because it makes her feel bad and the thing is I’m thinking about her when I’m doing it lol. I’m very attracted to my wife I’ve tried explaining it to her but it’s not getting through. Hard to explain your thoughts or prove what is going on upstairs.