hey everyone,

long time lurker, first time poster here. finally made a reddit account because i want to share something that i did a few months ago.

now ill spare you too much of my whole backstory, but to just give you a general idea about who i am: i am a student and i am in my early 20s. my sex drive comes and goes. sometimes its really fucking high, and then it goes away for a bit before it comes back with force.

one of those times where i really felt it and needed to scratch that itch was late last year. i was done with exams for the semester and decided to "indulge"

usually that means heading to one of the clubs downtown with a few girlfriends, finding someone that i like, and then peeling off quietly and letting them take me home to fuck my brains out. without trying to sound like a bitch, when i want to be i can look pretty hot, so that never has been a problem. like i said before my sexdrive comes and goes, so my usual MO so far has always been -> have a one night stand -> fuck them and if the sex is good keep fucking them for a few months until things tamper off again.

i dont really "sleep around" i guess, and i realize how ironic that sounds. well. all im trying to say is that i am not a brazen slut who does 7 different guys a week. but im starting to ramble.

aaaaaanyways.

so i was at a club. a nice looking guy comes up to me and we start to flirt. he is a bit older then me - late 20s and looks pretty average, but the way he carried himself was really hot. confident i guess. so after a few drinks things start to get handsy - him grabbing my ass, which is a good sign that ill get lucky with him tonight.

he then asks me if i want to "party at his place" and shows me a baggy with some pills, asking if i want one. now at this point im already more then a bit buzzed, and for whatever reason i say yes - first "mistake" i guess. i have taken molly - what i assume he is offering me - before, although i can count the times i did it on one hand. i also never had sex while on it. i guess i just figured why not. i was feeling it and he seemed alright.

he gives me a pill, and i quickly do it, with the rest of my drink. then he suggests we get out of there, to which i happily agree. the fact that he didnt do any doesnt really bother me - stupid slut behavior, but its pretty hard to think when your horny and just want dick i guess.

we then head to his apartment using the tram, and when we get there i am already feeling the effects of the pill. whatever he gave me is hitting me pretty hard and i feel dizzy. maybe mixing it with alcohol also wasnt smart.

now the thing is, his apartment is not empty. his two room mates (also guys in their mid to late 20s) are there.

and while i am still confused why they are sitting on the couch looking at me like i am a piece of meat he starts to grab and grope me - in front of them.

at this point a few things go through my head. but mostly just what the fuck is happening and hey this is really fucking hot

now i wont go into much detail about what happend next. the whole night was a blur. but its pretty much exactly what you imagine......

all 3 of them ended up fucking me that night. together. i had never been with more then one guy at the same time before. let alone while rolling on what could have been some kinda roofie.

but to give you the cliff notes:

they used condoms while fucking me. they fucked both my pussy and my ass. i was DP'd several times. i was fisted. and i lost track how often i came. they were pretty rough with me, which probably had something to do with me cumming like a nympho. i was choked, slapped, spat on and called names while getting fucked. at some point they were fucking taking turns fucking me in the ass, while choking me with a belt. i dont know how long the whole thing went, but easily 3-4 hours. its hard to tell, because there were points where i passed out, then came back to, like i said, all a bit of a blur.

i have never, ever before been used like that. and i fucking loved it. its kinda fucked up, because they literally abused me, but i got off so many times and encouraged them to do it harder. now that i write things down, i realize that me beeing very eager about the whole thing probably had a lot to do with how rough they were to me.

eventually as they were all starting to get spent, they each finished on me for the last time (i remember them each cumming at least 2-3 loads over the course of it) and i passed out for good.

i woke up the next day about 12 hours later on their couch, feeling hungover as hell and sore all over. i had bruises on me, and both my pussy and ass hurt. as i then gathered up my clothes they were around, making lewd comments. the guy that took me there told me he unlocked my phone and took some pictures with it, and also put his number in it.

they then ended up calling me a cab that took me back to my place, where i took nice warm shower and then crashed into bed for another 6 hours or so.

in hindsight the whole thing was risky, stupid, dangerous, fucked up and crazy. but thats also what made it so fucking GOOD

now obviously i cant tell my friends about what i did and that i really enjoyed it, but i figured i needed to share this with someone.

and before anyone asks - yes i have been back there sober several times. i have found that those guys are assholes. but i still have let them fuck me again. the sex was still great sober. last time was a few weeks ago, and things have kinda run their course now.

in closing i guess i was wondering if anyone else has this thing where the need to be a dirty slut comes and then goes away again? or am i weird?

anyways, would love to get some feedback/opinions or answer any questions :)