So I (M20) have a girlfriend. We’ve been together for about 3 years now and for the most part it’s been great. We have our arguments, yeah, but nothing too bad. We even have a great sex life. But I wouldn’t be here if everything was perfect, now would I?

Over the last few weeks, I’ve had a massive urge to cheat on her with somebody on here. I know it’s bad, I know I shouldn’t, but no matter how hard I try, the urge just grows. Its like the more I try to forget it, the more I want to cheat. Just the thought of it makes me harder than I’ve ever been before.

Well, a few nights ago, I did it. Again, I know it's fucked up, but to say I enjoyed it would be an understatement. I honestly think I'm addicted to cheating now, but to be honest it feels to good for me to care. The rush of it, the thrill, it's all too much for me to resist. All horrible of me, I know, but you only live once, right? Might as well do it.

So I've decided to be even more fucked up and look for something of a long term affair partner, whether that be in person or online. I've only ever done like one time flings and although those are sexy and risky, I think having a proper affair partner would be a hell of a lot more risky. Being that risk is like half the fun, I can only imagine how hot that shit would be.

So should I do it again? I know it’s wrong, but my god do I yearn to cheat again. So, should I? Should I cheat again? Or should I find a proper affair partner? Feel free to let me know.