My [F26] childhood best friend [M27] and I both recently got into relationships (each a few months in) and decided to go on a double date in order for everyone to meet and hang out.

We went to a local bar and everything was going super well, we were laughing and everyone was hitting it off. I excused myself from the table to use the bathroom and my friend also excused himself so we waited in line together and just as it was my turn the handicapped stall became available so I went to go in and he asked if he could just come in too (not weird, we have done this many times) we each did our business and were talking about our partners saying how happy we were then next thing I knew he was telling me if it doesn’t work out we could always get together and I thought he was joking until I made eye contact with him and I saw a look I’d never seen before.

He grabbed a hold of my chin and whispered that no one would ever have to know and immediately went in for a kiss. We started making out, he lifted me onto the sink counter and began to finger me as he kissed my neck. It was so hot and even though I knew it was wrong I felt powerless under his grasp, he fingered me until I came, licked his fingers clean, shoved one in my mouth to finish the job before pulling my skirt back down and opening the door to return to our table without a word.

Is it bad that I hope this happens again?