This will be long winded, I have a lot to get off my shoulders. My girl and I have been together for about a year and a half. The sex is fantastic, and I love the shit outta her, but I was definitely "getting around the block" quite a bit before we settled down. I cant seem to turn it off no matter what I do. Like a lion in a zoo getting steak chops thrown at me, it's good food, and easy, but all I wanna do is run down a zebra, take it down myself and feast, ya know?? I love the "hunt" so to speak. I gave her about a year of loyalty before I caved. She mentioned 3somes at the start of the relationship, as she is bi. However, after we exchanged the L word, she has shot it down repeatedly, to the point of I dont even wanna ask again...

So, I started fishing again and met this older girl on Tinder. She was a little unsettled about my situation at first. Eventually, she became ok with the idea of being a side girl, as she wasn't looking for a husband or anything at the moment. It's amazing what a few days of sexting can do, lol.

We met the following week. I went to her place after work, and told my gf that an old high school friend reached out and I went to hangout for the evening. We chatted for a while, smoked a joint, watched a movie. Then things got kind of heavy. We made out for like 30 mins on her couch, my hands moving all over her fucking tight body, to the point that precum was soaking my boxers, lol. She saw, and offered to suck my cock. She didnt wanna fuck on the first date, which I understood, so I obliged;). She said she was kinky but wow! She really blew me away in more sense than one🤣. Instead of just kneeling in front of me, she got naked, and layed down so her head was upside down off the couch, and invited me to fuck her face(I LOVE how upfront older women are about what they want!). I stood over her and slowly sank my cock into her mouth. My cock is nothing special, a little over 7", so not a porno hammer, but goddam did this girl choke and gag on it! I got it all the way down till my balls were covering her nose, and started gently pumping her face. I kept pulling back to let her breathe, as this was a first date 😂🤣. Which she responded with grabbing my ass and pulling me in, and lifting her head into it so she choked and gagged more. By this time it was pretty messy, she had spit on her face and in her nose, I was wondering if she could still breathe. I pulled out and stepped back to ask if she was ok. She looked up with a shiny spit covered face, smiled at me and said "I'm great, hun, you can go harder if you want, I LOVE making a mess when I suck cock."..... I was in heaven, as I have an oral fetish, and I'm a sexual deviant. So at this point, I wrapped my hands around her hair, reverse mounted her face, and slowly shoved my cock all the way down, I felt resistance, and pushed further past the throat barrier till her nose was in my balls again, then I gripped her head firmly, and began thrusting her head back and forth about an inch or 2, essentially jerking off with her throat hole. She made such a mess. Her face was COVERED in spit, the gagging sounds were so hot too, I was basically about to cum all the sudden, lol. I pulled out and PAINTED this girls face, literally 10 table spoons of cum on her face. Then rubbed my cock all over to combine the cum and spit together for a filthy, fantastic masterpiece. After a minute or so of playing in the filth, we washed up, and I said goodnight.

After that, we met pretty much weekly and explored kinks together. She loved the master/slave dynamic, and being degraded/humiliated, especially with her mouth. Once that was established... well... it was game time😈. I had her do all sorts of disgusting things for me. I made her give me a full tongue bath, from the bottom of my feet, to my toes, up to my asshole, to my balls, to my cock, down to my other foot, which I then made her put all toes and the whole front of my foot in her mouth, then wrapped the other one behind her head and locked it there then pulled in forcing the other foot down her throat, so she could gag on my feet, which I then rubbed all over her face right after, lol. She even licked my armpits, nipples, literally EVERYWHERE. This girl was a champion in the filth department🤣.

She liked to be fucked hard, so sometimes, I would kneel her down over the bed and spank the shit outta her, at least until her whole ass is red. Then slowly put my cock in her tight cunt, and fuck the fucking shit outta her for as long as I could. Which I'll admit, I dont do cardio that often, so all I could give her was like 20-30 mins tops, then I'd cramp out, or possibly even "lose attention" the odd time.

She also REALLY liked eating ass, and I don't mind a good sloppy rimjob. There was a few times where I would just lay her down on the bed and sit on her face, sometimes even trying to find the spot where she couldn't breathe, and then resting my weight their for as long as I felt like, as she struggled under me. (I know, I'm a sadistic pos. But she LOVED it, I swear). There was a big mirror she had in her walk in closet, after she bought a leash and collar at my behest, I would bring her in there on all 4s, have her kneel in front of the mirror, then turn around and actually wipe my asshole all over the girls face. Occasionally telling her to look over at how much of a slut she is in the mirror. She liked jerking me off when we did that, even as my asshole went back and forth from the top of her forehead all the way down to the chin over and over. She would pull back sometimes, but with the leash in my hand, and the collar firmly around her neck, she couldn't go anywhere. She was my mouth slave, which she surprisingly really liked when I first called her that.... girls are strange to say the least🤔.

I was having my cake and eating it too. I know, I'm a pos. I just cant stop. My cousin said I'm a sex addict, which I'm inclined to agree with him. Especially after re-reading this post. I'm awful. He's even told me I dont deserve my girl, which after re-reading this post, I'm inclined to agree as well.

Things were going fantastic. However, after 3-4 months she wanted more from me, which I couldn't give her. She went back on Tinder and found someone. We saw each other one more time after that, and it was great! She asked if we could still hang out as friends, I told her no deal. If I was the other guy, I wouldn't want my girl hanging out with some guy she used to fuck, all that unnecessary sexual tension in the air, but maybe that's just me? She understood, and we said our goodbyes. I miss her, but above all else, I hope she's happy. I know the guy she's with is happy🤣😂. Anyways, thanks for reading!