My fiancee and I recently broke up after 5 years of being together and a few months away from getting married. She ended the relationship pretty abruptly a few weeks ago, and it's been really bothering me since. I knew that she had questions about what marriage meant for her and for us, but I never suspected her to end the relationship in one afternoon with a prepared written note.

Before the relationship and before we moved in together, I webcammed pretty regularly. Guys, girls, trans, I would interact with everyone watching my cam. My now-ex knew I did this, but not how often or that I was still camping while we were dating. Once we moved in, I stopped the cam stuff so that I could focus on the relationship, because I really thought I had something special and didn't want to chance ruining it. I missed doing shows, but I never regretted moving away from it.

Fast forward to now, we are separated but living in the same place still, sleeping in separate rooms with me on the couch. I noticed her routine the past few weeks of never coming out once for anything as soon as she went to bed. So last night I took a risk and webcammed myself for the first time in years. It felt incredible. I was enjoying myself so much, from broadcasting myself masturbating to chatting with those reaching out. I didn't go to ejaculation because I still didn't want to risk getting caught, but this was the best I felt camming ever, I'm terms of pure enjoyment.

I never expected to miss camming as much as I did. The sex with me ex was vanilla but still really good, but going back on webcam felt amazing. I'm still a decent mess from the break up being that I'm still confused about why it happened. I don't know exactly why I felt as great as I did, but I'm glad to be back to my old kink of showing off touching myself and talking to the viewers. My ex is moving out in a few days, so I'll be back to my old habits very soon. I really don't know how I feel about it, I do know though that I'm excited to be camming more though.