As a married man, I know me being here and doing all this wrong and yes I’m a horrible person and I accept that! No need to plunge that wooden stake in my heart even more but hear me out. I don’t know what it is but something with play and chatting and sexting on Reddit makes me feel something else. And I thought I was good with that something else. I promised I won’t grow the desire to do something outside of reddit but that’s no longer the case. I feel like I want to have some fun outside of being online. I want to feel desired, wanted and felt lust full. Sure I know irl it would never happen, no women who wants to be a secret would even want a married man who has a dad bod or have gray hair. Idk maybe at this point im just rambling and certain points im just want to have a secret. I honestly just not thinking straight and I have no idea if any of this made sense