I [m] had a friend [f] I met in college. Initially I was not attracted to her. She was cool to be around had similar interests, but kind of smelled funny, made outward attempts to be unsexual, and took pride in being conventionally unfeminine [mens clothes, not shaving, short hair, forcing a lower register voice, being generally tomboyish, etc.] And I accepted her as a person and as a friend. I literally didn’t want anything from her and that’s who she was.

I used to even dislike her personally sometimes. She would start arguments for no reason, always had a soapbox or war path and to her everyone was stupid or an idiot for disagreeing with her.

We used to play videogames/fighting games and I would always beat her ass and she could not cope. It didn’t matter how many other men she could beat, she just never beat me and would hit me when she lost. It never hurt so even that was ineffective but one day she hit me and I bodied her and I stared her down aggressively for the first time. But I could see the prolonged gaze in her eyes and a lot of color on her cheeks. Her skin got hot immediately and just stayed there even when I let up.

Her roommate [f], who used to wrestle tried to intervene, but had no idea I used to wrestle and I’d won a few state championships. It took very little effort to subdue them both simultaneously.

After that, it became this regular thing. They would both try to provoke me playfully to manhandle them. I wasn’t stupid and I knew it was getting them off.

Eventually there was a night, just us 3 at their apt playing games and things escalated with no words and we all just had the most aggressive, sweaty fuck and never talked about it after. I still revisit it.

Me and the first girl stayed friends and she started just being nicer. She groomed differently and tried to be sexual and I responded well to it. We would both not go home for minor holidays and just fuck openly with the entire apartment to ourselves. We’d take turns tying each other down in front of the tv putting on porn, and sucking/fucking the tied person as they faced the screen.

She used to get off to my other hookups. Ask to see pics and videos of me with other girls instead of porn while she and I fucked. Eventually she started dating guys and I didn’t know. We weren’t exclusive but it caught me off guard when she called me over for a fuck, where I came in her a few times before leaving and she was like “shit I’m late” For a date with this guy who didn’t know we were fuck buddies. I knew the guy and felt wrong.

I found out she was having me cum in her regularly before her dates with other men and women. As hot as everything was, it was not for me and she became an asshole again so we cut ties.

Every now and then I think about seeing where she is and inviting her for a weekend. I’d never be vulnerable with her but It’s nice to imagine thrashing her holes all over again.