he’s so cute… like sooooooooo cute hehe 🙃

i actually kinda can’t believe ive been feeling this way tbh it’s really not like me.. ive never felt attracted to a professor a teacher before like at all. even if ive found one handsome or good looking i have just never actually crushed on one of them. he gets me so nervous tbh but i try to ask him questions sometimes anyway even though it feels like im dying inside. he seems like he’s actually kinda close to my age so that may be part of why he’s so attractive to me as a teacher. we make quite a bit of eye contact throughout class & i cant really tell if im just delusional about it but there’s a part of me that feels like he may be interested too.

as much as id love to be maximizing my time in his presence while he stares at me with his pretty eyes from across the room, i can’t help being late to his class almost every time. every week when I wake up with his class that day im instantly so horny i cant help but get off all morning in my dorm bed at the thought of him.. so handsome.. my underwear gets so sticky thinking about how gorgeous i find him. & then i go to class like ~1/2 an hour late after i clean myself up & get a quick snack. i wonder how he'd feel if he had any idea what i think about. it can feel pretty awkward walking into class late with my lust for him living between my thighs but it gets made up for quickly with our consistent eye contact, which i notice he shifts to me when saying certain words in his lecture. yesterday i started trying to shift my gaze down to his lips while he spoke, hoping it would communicate my thoughts to him in some way.

i waited until the boys in my class were done trying out his equipment and asking about his bands so that we'd be the only ones left in the room while i got to ask him about our midterm. ugh he's just so dreamy looking. i want him/ need him asap but maybe if i can help it ill wait till the end of the semester ..