I'm (M20) virgin and I have been pretty much masturbating for 2 weeks. It's gotten to the point that I just let myself cum in my pants. I want to have sex to experience it to know what it feels like but at the same time, I'm too shy and uncomfortable with being close to someone idk. I haven't had a girlfriend and the one friend that is a girl had played with my feelings and then got a bf then pretty much vanished from my life. At one point I even tried sexting with random strangers bc there was just some kind of a thrill or unfamiliar feeling in it. I got blackmailed due to that and instead of paying the person I just told everyone what I've been up to bc, I didn't care if they knew. I don't know what to do for I'm drowning in my own desires and it's only getting worse. Also, I didn't know what flair to use