So the title might not seem like it matches with the tag, but I assure you it does. I’m in my mid 30s now, happily married. I’ve known my wife now 8 years going on 9, we got married in the fall. When I was in high school I was a shy music kid. Played guitar was in bands. I tried to stay out of my home as much as possible. Pretty sure my mom was a narcissist and it was just me and her since my dad divorced her. So my self image wasn’t great and I just assumed the girls that liked me were teasing or I just would disappoint them.

When I hit college I lost my virginity. Found out from a hand full of girls that I had a good cock. In fact a few stayed in touch because of the sex over the year. My ex messaged me at one point not wanting to get married because she missed my dick. (Her words not mine) I talked her out of it just cold feet I figured. I wanted a relationship but all I knew and all I could get were hookups so I just went with it because I felt like that’s what I had to offer. I didn’t know what it was like to be anything else. Fast forward to me turning 26 after a lot of bad relationships. I met my now wife. We hit it off I had amazing conversations with her on our first few dates she saw me as a person. I was struggling in my career at the time she was supportive. She stepped back and saw my potential as a person and as a professional.

Now one thing she liked was being put in her place and being a dirty girl in the bedroom. She was a city girl and I was from a small town originally. She was a boss at her company and wanted to be taken down a peg when we had sex. For the longest time I couldn’t do it. I had so much respect for this girl and because that’s what I was used to for so long I didn’t want sex with her to be like the other girls who didn’t mean anything. I actually started going to therapy about it. In a weird way it was respect but also a comfort barrier I had to overcome. And I can say happily now I can love my wife and give her the bedroom experience she wants and with great enjoyment.