I have started expanding myself on esc*rt websites. They are full of older men who just want a young piece of meat. I have a bit of trauma from being young and dealing with older men. I have used that now as a kink. I desire to feel like the innocent girl I once was untouched laying on a bed waiting for an older male to use me softly but hard. I guess why thats why it has been 10 months since I have had sex. Still waiting for the right guy, but he has to understand the kink. He needs to treat me as if i was almost a virgin, it was very tight down there so just might feel that way. But since I have started using these websites I have felt so flustered, and naughty. I end up bouncing on my pillow all night as I chat with these older men. Almost like I shouldn’t be on there. I am hoping to find the right guy can can full me up physical and also gifts and a lil cheddar. Sometimes i feel ashamed for this kink. Especially since it kinda plays on being innocent and i am short so a lot of guys like that, sometimes it feels weird. I’m trying not to overthinking because I will end up just deleting all my profiles. I think being aware about it is healthy tho. But new kink should be getting unlocked soon hopefully:3