TW - Cutting/ED warning

wish I had someone to cut to, have rough sex, listen to dark music and make out. I'd give anything for a guy to see the scars on my arms as beautiful. I want to cut deep together with a razor blade and I want him to kiss away my pain and wipe away my tears. Maybe he'll let me taste a bit of his blood and he can taste a bit of mine. Then with the taste of his blood in my mouth I'll go down on him and suck his cock deep into my throat. I also want a guy that will starve me till I'm bones and perfect in his image. I want him to rashion out my portion sizes and make me eat small petite meals. And if I gain weight he will beat me and beat me untill I agree to skip dinner. Then if I am a good girl and lose weight he will take me to the cemetery and we can make out, cuddle and listen to heavy metal.

Then on our anniversary he will carve his name into my flesh