Hey!

So yesterday I finally managed to try some things out. I came to the discovery a while ago that I am a bisexual heteroromantic (sexually attracted to both, romantically attracted to women) and have wanted to explore since. Unfortunately I am hopeless with women and figured that if I built up some sexual confidence with men, maybe my luck with women would turn around. This led me to downloading some gay hookup apps and looking for friends. I found one yesterday. While I’m usually rather cautious, I woke up horny and couldn’t shake the idea of actually meeting someone close and as luck would have it, that worked out. I hopped in my car, drove the thirty minutes to this guys house and finally got some fun. It was wonderful although I’m not sure how eager I am to jump back out there. Anyway, when I got to his house he was really sweet and knew about my inexperience and nerves. We started with some gentle touches, his hands running across my body, a quick unbuckling of my pants and an overall masterful removal of my clothes. He did the same to himself and guided me to the bed, pushed me back and crawled between my legs before gently taking me between his lips. I thought a blowjob would feel better. He was good but I think the lack of romantic attraction made it difficult. He was gentle and caring though which helped make up for it. He eventually flipped himself into a 69 and let me enjoy him. He was the perfect size for me to take without gagging, making it all the way down to his groin. This continued for a good while with him utilizing poppers to get him going (I’ve never seen them in person so I didn’t use any). Unfortunately this gave him some trouble so even though I was ready for my first time taking it he couldn’t help. Thankfully he thought of something, grabbing a condom and his vibrating toy, he eased it into me, turned it to full, and proceeded to rail me with it as took my dick in his mouth. While this took a while, he eventually got me to the edge, jerking my cock until I came from my first assisted orgasm. he was even kind enough to clean me up himself before grabbing me a rag. What followed was a short amount of cuddling that I found to be awkward since I wasn’t into it, but sweet nonetheless. Overall, he gave me a really nice first experience with men. Its left me with some questions about what I really want or where my attractions lie, but more than anything, while his affections made me feel slightly awkward due to not being able to return them, it left me really craving this type of contact with a woman. Just being intimate and then being intimate. I’ve got some things to work out, but in the meantime, I hope you can find this somewhat interesting or enjoyable.

Until next time, HSS