I have a secret Google drive of past sex tapes with FWBs and boyfriends. There's a whole folder of dick pics I've been sent over the years, during and before marriage.

Every once in awhile, I'll ask my husband to take care of our child so I can take a bath. I pour myself some wine and light up a joint because that always makes my pussy tingly.

After throwing in my ear buds and making sure the door is locked, I proceed to relax and scroll through the dick pics first to get me in the mood. I always end on the same one, my first BBC. Remembering how rough he was with me, and how good his length hurt always gets me in the mood to watch some videos.

Recently I've been getting off on one video that's a close up of an ex boyfriend eating me out. I'm dripping pretty hard from him doing small circles on my clit and you can see my tight wet hole clenching when I cum. There's also one where I'm being fucked from behind, and my breasts are swaying back and forth. I get a little self conscious that they look saggy as they're hanging but the guy is fucking me so hard I soon look passed it.

I don't talk to any of these men any more, and I always fuck my husbands brains out afterwards because the clit stimulation alone isn't enough. He would probably love it if I shared the contents of my drive with him. But I love having the dirty secret.

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