Soooooo this happened a couple summers back. I was in a coupling for 6years with a girl and I started to flirt with guys online. I had only dated girls and generally considered myself into women. At first I really thought I was just play flirting along with boys who found me cute. Loved the attention I was getting and generally I figured it was just in some good fun right. I had never been the girl a boy went after so it was all super new and fun to me.

So I spent some weeks chatting up a guy we can call L. who lived across the country. we spent a lot of time chatting fantasies and being flirtatious while playing games online. We had a lot of electricity I wasn’t used to. We had met through a mutual friend and I generally felt pretty safe just saying anything to this person. Turns out he started catching feels and wanted to fly to come see me. Against my better judgment I snuck behind my girlfriend and met up with him. He met up with me and we had a meal. He found a room to rent and the rest is hahahistory. GF found out during him being here what was happening and we ended things after some tough talks.

In hindsight we probably shoulda ended things sooner, we’re still friends somehow. I don’t really get it lol. I still feel bad sometimes so idk here’s to hoping saying it publicly helps somehow.