Idrk what to flair this but I still think it counts for this sub, let me explain

So I have this best friend (F19) whos a year younger than me that I just became close with about a few years ago, and ever since then, Ive gained really strong feelings for her.

Now you may me thinking, "whats slutty about having a crush? Seems pretty normal to me."

Yeah, except Ive lowkey become a total creep about it, Im so down bad and I cant control myself. Ive dropped many hints which I think were shot down (she couldve just been oblivious though, shes kinda an airhead at times), Ive said that cute nerdy girls are my type (shes a cute nerdy girl), Ive supported her very closely, blah blah blah.

Literally, one time I had her and a few other friends over to my pool last summer, and when she changed into her bathing suit, she left her clothes on my floor. After noticing this, I told her she could go ahead with my other friends, and that I needed a minute to piss. I went to actually piss but when I finished, I went back into my room and started sniffing her clothes for like a solid 2-3 minutes thinking about her.

I was craving that sensation again, so one time when I was over her house, she went to use the bathroom and while she was gone, I stole some stuff from her dirty laundry basket and stuffed it in my backpack. Idk if she noticed it was missing or not, but I doubt she realized it was me that took it. Maybe she did? Hell if I know. But I always slept next to her clothes at night, sometimes replacing my pillow case with her T-shirt that was doused her scent, and I cuddled up with her bra and pants and underwear for hours at a time and often fell asleep to the calming feeling of having her scent radiating off what I stole.

Ive really never told anyone this, but figured I had to get it off my chest at some point, Im sure this is pretty tame compared to the other stuff on here, but I still feel dirty about it. Even to this day, I sometimes still sleep with her clothes. I fantasize about her at least once a day too, nothing too bad, just the kinda stuff like making out with her so aggressively at each other that one of us falls over on top of the other and get handsy and escalate things from there.

Idk if this is even good for this sub, I think I just wanted to rant about this for a bit, shit if I know.