Can you imagine taking an inexperienced, innocent man and showing him the ropes. Using him till you cum multiple times and drain the balls. Trying new positions, techniques, or even fantasies. Deciding what you want to try.

All I, m 19, think is being used. Becoming someone’s personal cum dispenser and toy. The thought rolls through my head so much, that when an innocent conversation with a woman occurs, my mind is thinking of all the possibilities. This results in a wet spot in my pants because I’m so excited. I am a tall, dark hair, average build who is always looking for a good time. But, I’m living in a fantasy world because I can’t find any one. It just makes me want it more and masturbate more.

Ironically, I am a quiet and perhaps shy guy in the beginning. I don’t think many would guess I have such a dirty mind. I don’t know if I should reveal on my dating profiles or what. If I reveal how would I phrase. I’ve thought of it and imagined someone swiping on me and immediately saying they want to use me. Without any hesitation we are continuously fucking.

Unfortunately I am partly fighting my own self with a self image problem, partly because I was bullied as a kid, but as I get comfortable then I talk a lot more. I haven’t made many friends or ever had a gf in my life. I guess my inability to reach outside my comfort zone to meet someone has prevented that.

I can’t stop thinking and hoping that I will find someone, but until then my lover will remain my hand.