every night after my parents lock the door, i sneak down and unlock it...
i love the idea of being there for the taking, knowing that no one, least of all me, has the power to stop you getting what you want.
i wish i had the confidence to dress scantily and vulnerable out in public. a big part of me wants to enthral men who have covetous, self indulgent predatory thoughts that became overpowering when the see such a powerless piece of prey as me.
i am not a self hating person, or self harming person, but for some reason i have crazy urges to throw my life away for a sadist with a sharp tongue and a selfish nature.
why am i like this?!?!?!
i don’t consider myself to be THAT dumb but this is just so stupid…
i often wonder how close i’ve come to being truly hurt. i have got lucky many times…